Reality vs. Dreams

I've written before about having dreams in which Cindy is still alive.  These dreams are always in the present or future tense.  They are always very pedestrian in nature.  Nothing dramatic, not sad.  They are usually regular daily situations, things such as washing the dishes, or puttering around the house.

There are interesting connections between the conscious and subconscious.  Of course these dreams are built from the subconscious mind.  It reminds me of the comedy routine that describes what a dogs world looks like from the human perspective.  The human goes away and the dog frets and wonders if the human will ever come back.  Then the dog goes about it's normal routine of shoe chewing and house wrecking.  Later, it could be 15 minutes, 15 days, or fifteen years, when the human comes home the dog goes nuts so happy that the human came back.  There is a sense that whenever they come back they will just pick up like they were never gone.

That is what these dreams are like.  It is as if she never left.  As if she was just travelling for a while, and now it's time to recap all that has been happening since she left.  Sort of a "wow! you wouldn't belive what we went through when we thought you were gone forever."  It is at that moment that the conscious mind starts to interject into the scene and says "Hey! this can't be happening!  She's gone, she died, she is never coming back."  That will wake you up really fast every time.

Last night I had that dream again.  This time when the conscious mind first had that glimmer of reality, and was getting ready to start shouting, that I queried Cindy to make sure that this wasn't a dream.  When my subconscious mind assured me that indeed this wasn't a dream but was real that the dream was allowed to survive for a few more minutes before the conscious mind finally couldn't let this go on any more and had to inject reality once again. 

Udpdate:  I had the dream again.  This time when I start to recognize that Cindy is here I reached out to touch here and make sure that she is really there.  Confident that everything is real the dream continued and Cindy made a comment about death and how it is something that should never be a joking matter.  She was really sad and I think she was crying.  I thought to myself that yes she has suffered through the death of her grandfather, her father and now her .....  Whoa, that wakes you up pretty fast.

I'm not the only one having these dreams.  I was talking to a close friend of Cindy and myself today and she had the same kind of dream.  Cindy is there and everything is "normal" again.  It was her first of these dreams, so she hadn't really caught on to the subconscious thoughts breaking through to the conscious side and waking you up aspect of it yet.  Wouldn't it be cool if there was a way to turn off that connection so I could have a big long happy dream like that.