Monday, April 08, 2002

Top 5 Lists I watched High Fidelity again tonight. It's one of those films that I think some people "got" and some people "didn't get". I (think) I got it. At least I got something out of it. It also got me thinking about lists. Throughout the movie the characters keep coming up with Top 5 lists. "Top 5 All Time first track on the first side of an album," for instance. The main character has a Top 5 list of his ultimate jobs. I'm thinking a few lists of a personal nature might be a good thing right now to help clarify my feelings about the situations in my life. I probably won't share the personal ones with you here. But if I come up with a list with records on it, I'll let you know. Semi-related, and I'm not suicidal at all right now people. I was thinking that, and have you ever done this, made a list of "things to do before I die?" I was thinking that on the one hand they're very optimistic and goal oriented, but theres a side to it that is like a defense mechanism. "Things to do before I die" can be rephrased as "I can't kill myself until I finish these things." It's like a way of reminding yourself that you have much to live for. Or that suicide would be a let down. Again, let me state, despite recent events in my Marriage and Career, I'm NOT suicidal. Please don't read any subtle guilt trip or cry for help into this message. I'm fine. OK? I've struggled with it before, but not currently. 1:14:17 AM    comment []  Google It!