Monday, December 16, 2002

rob reed said i had to report what i did tonite cause i talked to him earlier and i was in a bad mood cause i was bored. anyway jonathan took me to the taco hut where i got a taco and cheese nachos. we stopped by the movie theater to check times but nothing is really out now that's worth seeing. we went to the student union to eat our food and see what we could do there and it turned out they were showing 'my big fat greek wedding' for $1 so we saw that even though i had already seen it but i knew it was good and would enjoy it again. after that we played pinball. jonathan kept beating me sometimes by a lot which was shitty cause he didn't really know how to play and pinball is my thing. i did beat him too but maybe only once or twice and not by much. why is it so hard for me to have fun? just kidding, i had fun but i didn't want to lose though i was glad jonathan didn't suck.

that movie makes me wonder when i'll meet my 'ian miller.' maybe i never will cause i already had an 'ian lane' and so i wasted my chance. it just doesn't seem fair sometimes how it's so easy for everybody else it seems to find someone except for me. i'm pretty broken on picking the right guys though. rob reed said he'll have to start picking but i really don't want that. haha! maybe i need to take a class in how to find the right guy for me. maybe i can cook him up w/ the right ingredients. or maybe none of it is possible for me and i'll just go about w/ my silly relationships that never amount to anything.

my stomach feels like it's sticking out more than usual. i'm not even full at the moment or feel i've been eating much lately. guess it's a decrease in exercise though i have been running on a semi-regular basis. not my usual but still more than most people. i did 10 miles on friday on the treadmill which sucked cause the display was in minutes/kilometer and i couldn't figure out exactly what pace i needed to be.

wednesday i finally got my physiology presentation over with. my part seemed to go okay. my voice was a bit shaky but not too bad. the 4th guy to speak in my group took way too long and even though i saw him look at the clock he made no effort to finish quickly since we still had another guy to talk. we ended up going a bit over and the 5th guy talked for a few minutes. we were all supposed to do about 10 min. and we even had to skip the summary slides cause greg went too long. most people were getting between 95-100% so i'm not worried about the grade. also dr. ross made the final open book which takes off lots of pressure. now i'm pretty sure i'll have a B. probably around an 87%. i have to pick up the exam tomorrow at 9a and return it by tuesday at 9a.

thursday i had a live dog quiz in gross anatomy which i got a 34/34 plus we got 2 points added cause one group got to take it open book cause they had a shortened lab period and their quiz average was about 2 points higher so really i got 36/34.

friday was my very last gross anatomy lab test for the semester. while i did good enough to keep my B in the class, it wasn't as well as i would have liked. i'm thinking i got a 80% plus any points he spots us. a funny thing happened during the test. there's 50 stations you go around to and you get a minute per station. at one point i look across the row and the guy mike that drove me home one day happened to be at the station by my desk. usually if you finish before the minute is up you waste time looking at people's desks and their pictures. so when i saw mike i wanted to see if he'd look at my pictures. i guess i'm curious to see if he's interested in me or anything. all of a sudden it was like he realized something and he suck his head into my desk area to check out my pictures. cool thing is one of my pictures is from a triathlon and i'm on the bike and my arm muscles are looking good. :0) wonder if it did anything for him. funny!

that afternoon i went back to campus for a review session and then hung out w/ rebecca and calista, two of my lab partners, to study micro laser disc but mostly we just talked and gossiped. that night i went to chili's w/ jonathan for dinner and then to the bar for a couple drinks where we met jonathan's friend glen.

saturday i went to bob's for breakfast and then staples and walmart. jonathan made pina coladas and we went to chris' for cards, drinking and don't forget the man show.

today i did some laundry, tried to make tofu meatballs but they actually look like cookies. jonathan tried one and while it was edible he didn't think he'd be eating anymore. i need to work on my cooking. how will i ever land a man?? it was 72 degrees today which is awesome but didn't spend much time outside. went to the mall where i became depressed cause of all the people my age and younger with little kids. it just seemed everywhere i looked i couldn't avoid these people and their kids; more obvious than usual. is this some kind of sign? anyway i was very frustrated and unsatisfied w/ life i guess and after hours of being wishywashy, and buying cleo a no bark collar online, jonathan finally took charge and kicked me in the ass. that's when we went out to do all that stuff. he gets pretty frustrated w/ me cause i basically refuse to make up my mind and he doesn't want to make the decisions all the time. i don't know why i have such a hard time w/ this. i just wish i knew what i wanted and said it or did it or something. i really don't want to frustrate or annoy anyone. sorry everybody.

so i didn't study this weekend. i don't feel much pressure since tomorrow's final is open book and wednesday's is micro and i only need like 100/150 for an A. gross is friday and i do need at least a B to get a B in the class i think, mostly i'm assuming, i should calculate for sure, so that's kinda scary. i'll have to focus on that. good thing i don't have much else to do this week.

guess i'm off to bed. hope you enjoy this post.

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