Heather's Vet School Weblog

Tue, 04 May 2004 05:47:45 GMT

My new site is up and running. It's not perfect but hey I only have a few weeks left with school and am going crazy. Go there from now on.

Mon, 03 May 2004 05:38:18 GMT

Well I was going to stop posting for a bit since I'm in the middle of switching from Radio Userland to Blosxom but it's not happening right this minute so I'll have to post. I got through my hellish week last week and am awaiting the scores from my exams. I'm not worried about virology though I'd love to have gotten an A on that test but I'm not sure. Cardiology did suck but it could have been worse; I did know how to answer some of the questions. I'm just hoping to get at least a 70% but I have no idea. I didn't do well on the short explanation questions. I was operating on a couple hours of sleep friday, we took the test from 7am-9am and then had class at 9am. Dr. N was giving us a hard time because we weren't so responsive but hey just give us credit for being the few that actually stayed for your class. Had class until 2 and then Rebecca and I tortured ourselves at the gym. I just did my usual workout but I was so tired it was hard to stand up let alone run. I was pissed to remember that when I got home I still had to do my online Clin Path quiz. It took me about 90 minutes and I got a 9/10 though while I was taking it I felt that I knew nothing. Stayed up to watch The Cure on Leno and then went to bed around midnight. Got up at noon and hung around the house with Cleo, my roommate and Cooper were gone, did some laundry, no studying, I forget what else, oh yea I talked on the phone a lot. Watched Nashville Star finals at night to see the guy I liked, Brad Cotter, win. Took Cleo running Sat and Sun. Stayed up til about 3am last night, feel asleep watching The Prince of Tides. How anyone could have an affair on their wife w/ Barbra Streisand even in a movie is beyond me. Got up at 1pm today, finished laundry, cleaned my room, the kitchen. Did one chapter of Clin Path. 7 more to go for the test Thursday. I'm going to try and go to sleep though I got up so late.

The most disturbing news this weekend was my dad got in a major crackup earlier in the week and didn't tell me until Saturday. Some lady ran a red light and rammed into my dad's door. His air bag went off and he tried to get out but he was in so much pain after getting his leg partway out, some guy at the scene held his leg since he couldn't move it in or out anymore until the ambulance came. He went to the hospital and had xrays and MRIs to make sure his brain was okay and his internal organs. He has a bump on his head and a bruised kidney and spleen. This freaks me out cause he's also on warfarin so I don't want him to have internal bleeding or anything. I made him get an medical alert necklace when he started taking the warfarin exactly for times like this, wonder if he was wearing it. So he said he didn't want me to worry about him, he was okay. He said next time he'd have someone call a couple days after he's dead. Thanks for nothing Billy Martin! He also has a new 'girlfriend.'

Oh and also the good news: I got the MIT externship so I'll be spending my summer back in Boston and living with robreed and martiansmelli and BILLY my ferocious dalmatian. Now I need to figure out what to do with Cleo the hound. Hopefully it'll work out so he can stay w/ Jen and James and Josie the Schipperke and Cleo the kittycat.

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 01:49:58 GMT

Nina had an awful morning! She came to class and told me that outside the vet school she was riding on her scooter about 30mph, which is the speed limit, and this chick in a car behind her decided she wanted to illegally pass her and ended up almost hitting Nina. Also turned out the girl parked at the vet school too but Nina didn't see who she was. After our first class I made Nina go get the license plate # and then I called the Police Dpt and reported the bitch. The next awful thing that happend to Nina was that this bitch in our class, Kristen T. (not to confuse w/ the other Kristin), came up to her after Radiology and told her in her awful annoying voice, to somehow paraphrase 'We've (I don't know who else has the problem w/ Nina, she didn't elaborate) decided that you get up during class too much and it's a distraction.' More was said but it's all along these lines. Yes Nina does get up sometimes during class but we're in there all day long and sometimes you just have to go. Too bad bitch! Who the hell are you to tell Nina she gets up too much? If you wanna start something, Did you know we do have a dress code in vet school? I don't think your shorty short skirts would adhere but really the worst is the tops you choose that expose all your tummy fat. You have way too much to wear what you do. Now that's a distraction. Most people have tummy fat but they seem to realize it and cover it up, not to embarrass themselves. I guess you're not that smart.

Now back to studying! Virology is tomorrow.

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 18:27:14 GMT

Go vote for Dear Leader in the Boston Phoenix Best Music Poll 2004.

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 16:09:18 GMT

PETA has a problem with the vet school accepting funds from the Racing and Gaming Commission.

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 00:48:30 GMT

For the love of golf!

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 00:37:57 GMT

I'm glad to see 'Your Body Is A Wonderland' made this list.

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 19:52:05 GMT

All in all I had a good week. I've run everyday since friday, went to all my classes this week, studied every day since sunday and did fine on my radiology exam. I only need a 77% on the final to keep my A. I still need to lose a million pounds, some wrinkles, get an attitude adjustment which I'm against at the moment and study better.

Tomorrow's the big race: Dog n Jog 2004. Go Cleo!

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 19:43:02 GMT

I just went to the counselor here at the vet school. I made the appt last week when I was feeling awful since I don't want to get too messed up so that I can't recover. I thought maybe it might help and I don't think it can make things worse. She made me sign a suicide contract that says if I'm feeling like I'm going to actively do something to myself I'm supposed to call her or the person I listed as a contact and then we'll have this plan which probably ends up with me in the looney bin. This all happened because I had to fill out this questionnaire that she said only fill out what you feel comfortable filling out. So I left blank the questions about had I ever attempted suicide or someone I know attempted suicide. I don't really have a clear answer to this question so I couldn't say yes or no. Then she said she needed to know about me though and I tried to expain I wasn't sure if I had and I only knew about other people secondhand so who knows what's true. So she asked me all these questions and decided I was at risk to some degree and I needed to fill out this contract. I told her I wasn't comfortable doing that. I didn't want this on record and if I was going to kill myself I would just do it and not involve people and if I was having suicidal thoughts the last thing I wanted involved was the police or doctors. She said she couldn't really see me without signing it so I did it. Whatever.

If your intentions are not to die then is it attempted suicide? One time I took a bunch of pills, a few different kinds and then just waited to see what happened. I don't think I wanted to die but I'm sure I wanted attention. I even told my mom I took the pills but she didn't seem to take it seriously. I was in high school and I remember lying down in bed with my mom and wondering if I would fall asleep and never wake up or not. So it seems I woke up. I don't know if I can count that. I've done lots of harmful things to my body: throwing up, banging my head against hard objects repeatedly, punching myself repeatedly in the same spot, lots of stuff like that which I could have died from potentially, remember my brain is particularly fragile, but that's not suicidal, right? I have people in my extended family that have 'tried' but I don't know if that really counts. I didn't tell the counselor all this but that's what I was thinking.

She also suggested I talk with my doctor about taking something since lots of times it seems my bad moods correlate with my PMS. She mentioned taking birth control pills (which I can't do because of my potential clotting issues, thanks Dad!) or antidepressants which I'm kinda against but maybe if it's just for those times. I'm going back next week. I just feel like I'm too much for her to handle. She's a PhD student and I assume younger than me. I have lots of issues, just ask robreed, so I have years of stuff to talk about. I went to a counselor the first time senior year of high school because my mom sent me cause I was throwing up food and she thought I was bulemic. I don't know if I can count that either. I wasn't addicted just partly to eat stuff and get rid of it and when I got mad to make me feel better. I had a couple friends that would do it with me sometimes and we called ourselves The Betty Barf Club. So I spoke with this counselor once about that and then the next week we had vacation and unexpectedly my parents split up and completely destroyed what I thought was a nice, little, normal family and I've never gotten over this really. So the next time I went to the counselor the bulemia was tossed aside for the parents' split. I don't think I went much more. School was ending. Then junior year in college I went to a counselor for about a year. I even had a whole semester of grades resigned thanks to her input. So I have all that baggage I could discuss plus the last 10 years or so that I haven't been talking about. Too much work!

By the way robreed I didn't put you for the contact on my suicide contract. I figured you wouldn't want your name involved so I put my mother's.

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 04:47:47 GMT

This could be good, if people were good. Somehow I found this weblog that I thought was Hal Sparks who plays Michael on QAF and he was talking about marrying Randy who plays Justin on QAF and I got all confused cause I thought Hal was straight and Randy gay (ya know in 'real' life) but then I figured out that this weblog is part of the After Celebrity website. It had me goin' for a few minutes.

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 04:52:21 GMT

3 days in a row I've been a very conscientious and model student. robreed you would be proud!