Fan Failure
I know I'm a Los Angeles Laker fan. On nights like tonight, as I watch them play with a 26 point deficit against the Phoenix Suns, less the semblance of a game and more a bloodbath, I'm sure of it because being a fan has more to do with pain and perseverence when times are not good than elation and gloating when times are good.
This year has been a bit turbulent - part of the quiet on this blog is my own mental battle with personal failure and writer's block as I'm trying to figure out what happened to my voice. I've struggled with hitting limits of what I can do that still fall short of the desired goal. I've been fighting the sort of wistful nostalgia that keeps people locked in the past and paralyzed with the present.
But perhaps life is like fandome - it's more about what you do when things are rough than when everything is going your way. The mantra from ZAMM was focus on the journey over a focus on the destination. In moments like this I can stop shouting at the television, or stop being a busybody, and try to figure out exactly how I feel and exactly what is happening.
11:56:52 PM 
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