Sexy Magick

The Great Bra Hunt

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 07:17:07 GMT

over the course of the last few days I have ordered 20 different bras from various locations and probably have tried on close to 50 different bras - why you ask? because apparently I'm an odd size and hardly anyone carries my size in the stores and victoria secret just doesn't sell my size, so I'm on the hunt for a new bra and I'm just not going to wear one until I find one that fits. So every day or so, a new shipment arrives and every day, I return the lot of bras, nothing fits right. One did arrive that was sexy and actually fit, thank god, at least if I'm wearing a dark color now, I have a bra that fits but this brand, Felina, apparently only makes one bra in 40B, so now I'm back to the hunt to find another bra. One of the playtex bras fit a little but I felt like I wearing my grandmother's bra or was straight out of a Madonna video, so just not me. I did however finally remember that Fredericks probably sells pretty bras and they had a selection in my size, so hopefully those fit. Cross your fingers for me, one of these bras has to fit, right? I guess the good news is that in 10 days or so, all my credits cards will get refunds back on them...back to the bra hunt, is that sort of like a scavenger hunt or maybe trying to find a needle in a haystack?

tweeting

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 05:24:24 GMT

who hijacked my twitter updates? had to fix that code, annoying. now I'm all confused, maybe should eat some food, the figured out where the magic will be tommorrow night in the mission

stupid scanning gasket and possumns

Sat, 27 Jun 2009 08:16:31 GMT

I'm slightly upset. I was doing a quick scan at one of my client's office, it was late at night, for one thing, he's never there at 9pm at night but that's not the point, he saw me doing a huge scan of some documents and blew a gasket saying he wanted me to pay him for using his machine and pay for the scanned pages and pay him for whatever I was going to bill my client for using his equipment and he didn't want me to charge him for any work I had done while at the office tonight.

ok, its fair to pay him for the scans and possibly the usage of his machine but the thing is I wasn't going to charge him for coming in and updating the computer that was having issues and picking up the paperwork he left for me and for any accounting that I was going to do tonight. He didn't have to be such a jerk about it, I just said screw it, finished the computer updates and left, went to Kinko's to finish doing the scans.

So he would have been charged 100.00 for the computer time + 45.00 for the accounting time for one hour of work and I did 40 pages of scans at 10cents per page (that's what Kinko's charged me) and a few color plots (lets see 2.50 x 4 = 10.00), so for the meer 30 mins of using his equipment, he would have saved 145.00 but no he got pissed off which means even though I'm now going to pay him 45.00 to cover the cost of renting his machine for a few moments + the color plots + the 40 cents for the scans, he's still going to get charged 100.00 and he pissed me off. No more extra work for him anymore, he can wait just like everyone else and for that matter, no more goddamn discounts...feel much better, needed to vent

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on the other notes of the day, hope my two friends are doing ok. I worry about them both!!

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and my poor baby possumn died today, I don't know what she got into but she's stiff as a board and no she's not playing dead, I checked but she was a lot bigger than i realized she had gotten.

are you wearing the right size bra?

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 07:53:51 GMT

have you ever wondered exactly what bra size you wear? Are your bras feeling a slight to restricting and you'd just rather not wear one at all? Can't figure out how to measure, then add the required numbers of numbers to figure out where you stand in the world of bra sizes? I'm too tired to figure out the calculations and got it wrong anyways, when I found this bra size calculator - whoever came up with this idea, thank you, completely helped and yep, I've been wearing the wrong size for a while now...ouch, no wonder my bras have been bugging me, 3 sizes too small and a few cups sizes way too small.

random thoughts

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 22:30:39 GMT

have you seen that commercial for the new dating show "More to Love"? Its being billed as the dating show for the rest of us which is great because most of the world isn't a size 2 but what I didn't particulary like about the show's commercial was that it was assuming that big women like big men (aka fat women like heavyset men), the commercial showed big beautiful women wanting to find love and their assumption is that heavy set people like other heavy set people, me personally, I'm definetly larger than a size 2 but I like skinny-average guys. They're casting for men states "Searching for a large and lovable single guy" and the casting for women is "casting for curvy, beautiful, and confident women who are single, ages 23-35" I guess I feel like they still got a misconception about curvy, beautiful, confident woman, not all of us like single, broad large guys and not all large single broad guys like curvy big beautiful women, they're still sterotyping people.

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how does one tell a friend that maybe the guy she is with(whether they are married or not) isn't the best thing for her? Or do you just keep it to yourself? That even though he's with her/comitted to her that he's up to his old tricks again. And that maybe its time for her to start putting things back in her name, start taking care of herself just in case.

tis not the day

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 22:24:02 GMT

Today was the day or it was suppose to be the day that I quit smoking. I smoked my last cigarette this morning and walked into the hypotherapist's office with the full intent and mind to quit smoking. I believe that I was probably hypnotised at least for a moment or two, I think I might have fall asleep as well. He explained the process and that its my unconscious mind that is not allowing me to kick this habit and that my willpower alone will not do the trick because when I started smoking as a teenager that I probably did it for emotional reasons and my unconscious mind was protecting itself emotionally by not allowing my conscious mind to release itself from a bad habit - that all makes complete sense. I was in a trance like state, I could still hear him and my hands were heavy and my feet felt like they were rocks in the floor and I could see the bad habit as ball in my unconscious mind and I was throwing it away and then he started chanting "I am a non smoker and will be for the rest of my life" and then I don't remember anything except when he told me to find my happy place running through the fields as a little girl and that everytime I saw red it would re-enforce my happy place and I would feel a sense of euphoria at the time when I was a non-smoker. Here's the thing, I don't remember every running through the fields as a little girl and when he was pressing on my hands saying it was my happy place all I felt was pressure, not a happy place and then he brought me out of my trance and I honestly woke up with the sensations that I wanted a cigarette and water. But I thought, ok I can do this, I can be a non-smoker, I just paid 400.00 to be hypnotised to quit smoking. I walked to the car checking out all things red, didn't feel any different, looking at red wasn't producing an euphoria high, a happy place high. I drove all the way through SF, thinking to myself, I can do this, I'm not a failure, I'm not, I'm a non-smoker and started to have a panic attack, tears streaming down my face and I wanted a cigarette. Yea, I'm still a smoker. So that didn't work. Maybe if I knew what my happy place was, where my euphoria high was, then it would have worked or maybe since my brain is wired slightly different than the rest of the population, or if I hadn't had a panic attack, then it might have worked.

ok...so now what? I want to quit, i hate the way it smells, I hate that it makes me tired, I can go hours without smoking, so now what do I try, maybe I need to find my happy place and figure out why I'm having panic attacks first, then I can tackle the smoking thing again.

Believe in the ring

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 18:40:17 GMT

engagement rings and entwining of our paths (reprint of a story I wrote in 2003 with a little twist of the ring)

The path of one leads to the path of two as one, sweet dreams in the night, feeling the music dance between our toes as pleasure rises between us giving us our breath upon the soul of the dragon, the tail in the sky. Where does the intertwining of lovers begin? Does it begin with the single ring of understanding?

Following the bliss of our dreams as the night sky looks down upon the fates of heaven. Choices leading us to the single rose of a dream, to the heart of the hidden questions, to the dance of the muses. The answers lie hidden beneath our passions as raindrops float on rose petals, kisses on back circling rings on fingers. Ice on the still water while white fires burn brightly deep inside. Fairy-tales singing, tell me your soul, your passions, your loves, your heart. Questions out there, answers waiting for time and space. Candles dancing, circling our imaginations, giving us our inspirations for words and music, letting go, always seeking the passions within as the dove flys in the sky. The winged chariot awaits the charmed harp of the soul, the rose, the kiss, the ring.

The kiss of want. The kiss of passion. The kiss of play. The kiss of mine. Where does this lead us? What path are we following? Are the muses showing us the ways in to the path of one? Messages within the powers of the earth, the powers of our souls gathering strength to pursue the path of the dragon. Messages within our beings showing the hidden depths of our soul upon the wizard's sword. Believe in the ring.

engagement rings and wedding rings, I believe in the elusive ring, especially this one in diamond and ruby

Stainless Steel Sink Review

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 18:02:54 GMT

To be fair, I should review stainless steel kitchen sink and MR Direct also has them. I kinda of like this one because of its unusual size but I think I would probably use this one in the bathroom instead of the kitchen. But as a review of stainless steel sinks in the kitchen, MR Direct has once again cheaper prices than Home Depot and the same day shipping option. MR Direct also has bathroom sinks, faucets (kitchen and bath), shower sets, all for great low prices and looks like good customer services from the few reviews I've read.

Sink Shopping

Mon, 15 Jun 2009 18:46:47 GMT

At some point in this house remodeling concept, I will be re-modeling the kitchen, changing the counters, adding a back splash, finishing the missing cabinet pieces, redoing the wiring (ok, wasn't planning on that but according to my electrician, it needs to be done because its a fire hazard), fix the plumbing and eventually changing out the sink to match the counters. I love the idea of a stainless steel sink because they are heat resistant, I've been know to put hot pans in the sink after using them but stainless steel sinks aren't exactly scratch resistant and I wasn't sure what I was going to do until now, I found this Granite Kitchen Sink that is scratch resistant, heat resistant, kills 99% of the bacteria on contact, stain resistant (ooh, i need that), its recyclable (that's always good) and comes in four colors, two I like - brown and black. There are double sinks and single sinks and several other types of sinks. At MR Direct, the prices are well lets say good, very good. The same sinks somewhere else might cost double in price which is always been a little bit of a hold back for me in purchasing a new kitchen sink and they offer same day shipping which is great.