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Also, the &quot;diary-like&quot; part of the blog: at a given time, what the current phase of my life path, or songline, is like.</description>		<copyright>Copyright 2008 Tom Edelson</copyright>		<lastBuildDate>Wed, 12 Nov 2008 19:25:30 GMT</lastBuildDate>		<docs>http://backend.userland.com/rss</docs>		<generator>Radio UserLand v8.2.1</generator>		<managingEditor>edelsont@mac.com</managingEditor>		<webMaster>edelsont@mac.com</webMaster>		<category domain="http://rpc.weblogs.com/shortChanges.xml">rssUpdates</category> 		<skipHours>			<hour>23</hour>			<hour>1</hour>			<hour>2</hour>			<hour>5</hour>			<hour>6</hour>			<hour>7</hour>			<hour>8</hour>			<hour>21</hour>			</skipHours>		<cloud domain="radio.xmlstoragesystem.com" port="80" path="/RPC2" registerProcedure="xmlStorageSystem.rssPleaseNotify" protocol="xml-rpc"/>		<ttl>60</ttl>		<item>			<title>My Dog Died</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2008/11/12.html#a61</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Toofus was a fifteen-year-old retired racing greyhound, who had beenpart of my household for five and a half years.  Fifteen is reallyold: the median longevity of the breed is a little more than thirteenyears.  He had various health problems, particularly gradual loss ofsome of the function of the hind legs; so I knew that he was slowingdown, and that I should not be surprised if he came to the end of theroad within the next year, or even in any given month.  But there wasnothing acute, nothing to indicate that it was imminent ....&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;... until 5 am on Sunday, October 12, when I was awakened by noises,and went and found that things were a good deal worse.  He had fallen,struggled to get up, and fallen again -- several times, apparently,because all four legs had places where skin had come off as hestaggered against the legs of the dining room table.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This was on a hard-floored surface.  When I got him on to the carpet,he was able to stand and walk.  But shakily.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I began to face the question of whether it was time to euthanize him.I talked to various people on the phone.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Meanwhile, I was observing that he was somewhat stabilized, but notshowing any signs of returning to the previous day&apos;s level offunctioning.  He could get up, and walk around some; but he fell downseveral more times.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I became more or less clear that it was the right thing to let him go, to&quot;send him to Rainbow Bridge&quot;, as the current expression has it; but Ithought that it could wait for the next day, when the regularveterinarians would be open.  Then, in the evening, it got worse yet:he fell down again, and, after twenty minutes, had not made anyattempt to get up.  So then it became clear, intellectually but alsoemotionally, that the more merciful thing was to grant him hishonorable discharge, and do it quickly.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I ended up using a &quot;pet ambulance&quot; service to get him to the Cary petemergency clinic.  He was given the lethal injection, an overdose of asedative, at about 11 pm.  It was over in less than a minute.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I cried some, there and then.  The next day, I was sad, but notintensely so; I was at peace with my decision.  However, a monthlater, I am under no illusion that I am done grieving.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I loved that dog.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post: &lt;/em&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;ul&gt; &lt;li&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/greyhounds&quot;&gt;   Greyhounds&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2008/11/12.html#a61</guid>			<pubDate>Wed, 12 Nov 2008 19:20:24 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=61&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2008%2F11%2F12.html%23a61</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>An Invitation to Read About My Spiritual Journey</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2008/08/06.html#a59</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Actually, my &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/&quot;&gt;home page atThe Well&lt;/a&gt; has had, for some time, a link called &quot;Notes on myspiritual journey&quot;.&amp;nbsp; But the linked-to document wasin plain text, and not so easy to read.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Now, there&apos;s a newer version up, in HTML, and the content has beenrevised a good bit, too.&amp;nbsp; You can find it via the home page, orat &lt;ahref=&quot;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/personal/my-spiritual-journey.html&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/personal/my-spiritual-journey.html&quot;&gt;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/personal/my-spiritual-journey.html&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;It offers some insight into the &quot;Quaker&quot; and &quot;Taoist&quot; parts of myself-description (in the masthead of this blog).&amp;nbsp; It doesn&apos;t sayanything about the &quot;poly&quot; part, but I hope to address that soon.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;a   href=&quot;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/personal/my-spiritual-journey.html&quot;&gt;My   Spiritual Journey&lt;/a&gt; may also be the only page on the Web with   links to all of these Wikipedia pages (among others):&lt;/p&gt;&lt;ul&gt;  &lt;li&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Philip_Berrigan&quot;&gt;Philip      Berrigan&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;  &lt;li&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Limit_of_a_function&quot;&gt;Limit       of a Function&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;  &lt;li&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andy_Sipowicz&quot;&gt;Andy Sipowicz&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;At first glance, my spiritual journey may look like a randomwalk.&amp;nbsp; But there&apos;s some interesting scenery, and good mentalexercise, along the way.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;Aboutme&lt;/a&gt;, &lt;ahref=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Philosophy&quot;&gt;Philosophy&lt;/a&gt;, &lt;ahref=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Quakerism&quot;&gt;Quakerism&lt;/a&gt;, &lt;ahref=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/writing&quot;&gt;Writing&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2008/08/06.html#a59</guid>			<pubDate>Wed, 06 Aug 2008 16:05:25 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=59&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2008%2F08%2F06.html%23a59</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>Returned from the Dead</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2008/02/01.html#a50</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;I&apos;ve been among the missing again: I haven&apos;t posted here since August28 of last year.&amp;nbsp; A lot happened during that time.&amp;nbsp; Inparticular, my mother died.&amp;nbsp; Her name was Cynthia Ulrich Edelson,and she was ninety years old.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;That happened on November 7, but between the emotional processing andthe practical things that must be done, I wasn&apos;t accomplishing much onother projects for a good while after that.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;My relationship with my mother was, distinctly, difficult.&amp;nbsp; It&apos;sbeen a long time since I even pretended, to much of anyone, that Iwould regret her passing; that is, I anticipated that I&apos;d be happier,and better off, when she was gone.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;But that didn&apos;t mean that I imagined that it would be easy.&amp;nbsp; Theend of any important relationship, even a bad one, involves somegrieving; I knew that all along.&amp;nbsp; If nothing else, you grieve, ina more final way, the loss of hope that the relationship could bebetter; I don&apos;t think, with a parent, that hope ever reallydies.&amp;nbsp; Not until the parent does; then it becomes rationallycertain that, at least in this life, what you saw was what you got,and all you ever will.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I am pleased to report that my predictions were fulfilled.&amp;nbsp; Herfinal illness was mercifully short: she had a heart attack on Mondaymorning, and died, without ever fully regaining consciousness, onWednesday afternoon.&amp;nbsp; I got a lot of grieving done during thosetwo days, and during the days and weeks afterwards.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;The aftermath is not over.&amp;nbsp; I still have things of hers to sortthrough.&amp;nbsp; And I&apos;ve begun a sort of capsule biography of her,which, when it&apos;s done, I plan to put on the Internet (probably on thesite at The Well, not here on the blog).&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;But the aftermath of my mother&apos;s death is no longer absorbing so muchof my attention that I can&apos;t make progress on other things.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;vebeen doing some programming, for one thing.&amp;nbsp; I won&apos;t say muchabout that here: just that it has to do with two of my long-standinginterests, namely, personal finance software, and the Schemeprogramming language.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And I do believe that my &lt;em&gt;other&lt;/em&gt; predictions are also beingfulfilled; that now that the hard part of the transition is over, I ama happier person than I was before my mother died.&amp;nbsp; I seem to behaving an easier time fully believing that I can trust my own judgmentabout what&apos;s worth doing, for instance.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Anyway, I&apos;m back.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;About me&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2008/02/01.html#a50</guid>			<pubDate>Fri, 01 Feb 2008 19:54:05 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=50&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2008%2F02%2F01.html%23a50</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>What attracted me to Philosophy?</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/08/28.html#a49</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;This follows up on the two previous posts; together, the three of themattempt to answer the questions,&lt;/p&gt;&lt;ul&gt;  &lt;li&gt;How, and why, did I come to choose &quot;philosophy&quot; as a major, and  go all the way to a Ph.D. in that subject?  &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;li&gt;What does that [the answer to the first question] tell one    about my outlook on life, even now, more than forty years    later?&amp;nbsp; (And in particular, how might it help one to    understand &quot;where I&apos;m coming from&quot;, and &quot;what I&apos;m getting at&quot;, in    [some] things that I write today?)    &lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;The postdated&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/2007/08/08.html#a47&quot;&gt;August8&lt;/a&gt; of this year began the process by laying out the bare bones ofthe autobiographical facts which need explaining, and then posing thequestions.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;The one dated &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/2007/08/18.html#a48&quot;&gt;August18&lt;/a&gt; offered a partial answer to the first part of the firstquestion; that is, it focused on some factors that kept me fromchoosing another, otherwise appealing, academic path: majoring in a&quot;hard science&quot; subject like physics.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;But now we reach the heart of the first question: what were thepositive factors which drew me to choose philosophy as a major, andthen as a Ph.D. subject?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I don&apos;t know (don&apos;t remember?) what answer I would have given to thatquestion at the time.&amp;nbsp; But I am fairly sure that I would not havecome up with anything like the answer I shall give now.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This answer isn&apos;t simple: there&apos;s no way to reduce it to a singlesentence.&amp;nbsp; I shall, indeed, first give the answer as briefly as Ican, and then expand on it a little; but even the shortest form mustbegin with some background, that is, by stating some [alleged] factsabout my state of mind at the time.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I was in considerable emotional distress much of the time, and it wasat its peak during my sophomore year -- the year in which I was supposed to declare my major.&amp;nbsp; (Apparently, for sensitivesouls, having a particularly hard time during the second year ofcollege is actually rather common.)&amp;nbsp; A good part of the distresswas associated, in my mind, with a lack of clear goals for my life; alack of clear reasons for doing anything, in fact.&amp;nbsp; And it seemsthat I believed that studying philosophy would (or at least might)remedy this: might lead me to discover a sense of purpose.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Some of the pain had a more specific cause: I can remember some thatwas about romantic difficulties.&amp;nbsp; But at times, I had some quiteseriously suicidal thoughts, and a few times, took actions towardsimplementing them; and at those times, the thought in my consciousmind was that there was no reason to go on living, because there wasno reason ... no &quot;valid&quot; reason ... to do anything.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Some readers may have the highly logical response: if there&apos;s noreason to do anything, then, in particular, there&apos;s no reason to killyourself.&amp;nbsp; If that occurred to you, congratulations, because myself-perception is that that very thought saved my life, more thanonce.&amp;nbsp; I believed that I was getting ready to kill myself; andthen I didn&apos;t, because (again, in my conscious mind) it then occurredto me that there was no good reason to complete this action, any morethan there was a good reason to do anything else.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If I recall correctly, at those times, I followed out the implicationsof these thoughts rather accurately ... for a while.&amp;nbsp; I canremember a time in an attic when I was thinking of hangingmyself.&amp;nbsp; Once I &quot;realized&quot; that there was no reason to do that(either), I sat there and &lt;em&gt;didn&apos;t&lt;/em&gt; do anything (except breathe)for, perhaps, twenty or thirty minutes.&amp;nbsp; Then I got hungry, orfelt a need to pee, and acted on that desire.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In some ways, then, my thought processes were highly logical (onemight also say, frightfully so) ... given my premises.&amp;nbsp; But not in all respects.&amp;nbsp; For instance, I didn&apos;t ask myself if there wasanything to be learned, relevant to the &quot;big question&quot; ofpurpose in living, from the fact that certain desires did lead toaction, without stopping to consider whether, say, being hungryactually gave me a valid reason for seeking out something to eat.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And even more strikingly, from my present perspective: I don&apos;t recallthat the following question ever occurred to me, after I hadestablished, in my mind, that if there&apos;s no reason to do anything, thenit follows that there&apos;s no reason to kill myself.&amp;nbsp; That questionis: why was it that, even after that, brooding about having no reasonfor anything still, in fact, &lt;em&gt;led me to&lt;/em&gt; thinking of killingmyself?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;(I also don&apos;t recall being bothered by any inconsistency in the factthat, as described in my previous post, I managed to come up with whatI considered a valid reason not to major in physics, though that wasotherwise appealing.&amp;nbsp; It would seem that accepting a validreason &lt;em&gt;not&lt;/em&gt; to do something was, for some reason, lessproblematic.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;At any rate, it was against this background that I made the decisionto become a philosophy major; and then I pursued the subject all theway to a doctoral degree.&amp;nbsp; I knew that questions like &quot;what aregood (or valid) reasons for doing things?&quot; were questions that [some]philosophers worked on trying to answer.&amp;nbsp; (They fall into thesub-field known as &quot;ethics&quot;.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I was regarding the question, &quot;are there any good reasons for doinganything?&quot;, as, quite simply, an open question.&amp;nbsp; (And thus,adopting what must have seemed like an appropriately skeptical,&quot;nothing is certain&quot; attitude, applying that even to my own apparentcertainty that there were &lt;em&gt;not&lt;/em&gt; any good reasons for doinganything.)&amp;nbsp; It was, in my eyes, a philosophical problem that hadnot yet been solved, at least to my satisfaction; and I proposed totry to solve it.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I must have been hoping that the answer would &quot;turn out to be&quot;:yes, there are such things as good, or valid, reasons; for only inthat case would finding the answer relieve me from further instancesof the distress associated with thinking that there are not.&amp;nbsp; AndI do, now, have a confident, intuitive sense that the desire to escapethat distress was, at some underlying psychological level, thetrue &lt;em&gt;motive&lt;/em&gt; (note in passing: not &quot;reason&quot;) for choosing tofollow this path.&amp;nbsp; Or a big part of the motive, anyway.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And that brings me to a stopping place, for I have completed an answerto the first question: how, and why, I came to pursue the academiccareer that I did.&amp;nbsp; &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;One might think that the next step would be to try to answer thesecond question: what does this piece of my history tell one, that&apos;simportant in understanding the mind-set that I bring to lifenow?&amp;nbsp; I do intend to try to answer that, but not rightaway.&amp;nbsp; (Nor even &quot;in the next post&quot;, nor &quot;Real Soon Now&quot;.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Instead, I plan to put this topic aside for a while, and go about thebusiness of living ... including &quot;writing about computers, life, andsociety&quot;.&amp;nbsp; That may well include a different kind of follow-up tothis topic: having made this momentous decision to devote myself tothe study of philosophy, with emphasis on questions like &quot;Are thereany good, or valid, reasons for doing anything?&quot; ... did I come upwith any sort of answer?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;But as to what all this tells you about &lt;em&gt;me&lt;/em&gt; ... that may justsort of come out in the process, and not need to be answeredexplicitly.&amp;nbsp; Also, perhaps y&apos;all will be able to help me figureit out.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post include: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;About me&lt;/a&gt;;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Philosophy&quot;&gt;Philosophy&lt;/a&gt;;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Quakerism&quot;&gt;Quakerism&lt;/a.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/08/28.html#a49</guid>			<pubDate>Tue, 28 Aug 2007 17:24:33 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=49&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F08%2F28.html%23a49</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>So why not, say, physics?</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/08/18.html#a48</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Here, I&apos;m going to try to answer the first part of the question whichwhich I ended the last post, namely, the blog entry titled&quot;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/2007/08/08.html#a47&quot;&gt;How Ibecame a &quot;philosopher&quot; ... and what it tells you about me&lt;/a&gt;&quot;.&amp;nbsp;That&apos;s the &quot;negative&quot; part of the question: why didn&apos;t I pick one ofthe other majors I&apos;d considered, like, for example, physics?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;When I started college in 1964, I had a pretty strong idea that Iwanted to get a Ph.D. and become a college professor, or, at any rate,some sort of researcher&amp;nbsp; And yes, I was attracted to the teachingside of being a professor, too, but most fundamental was the desire togo on my own quest of the mind: to devote my efforts to findinganswers to some of the intriguing, puzzling, downright maddeningquestions with which my head seemed to be filled.&amp;nbsp; I wantedto &lt;em&gt;understand&lt;/em&gt; the world, a lot better than I did understandit yet.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Unlike some choices of occupation, this one didn&apos;t dictate a choice ofmajor; in fact, it hardly constrained that choice at all.&amp;nbsp;The choice of major was just a choice of which category of questions Imost wanted to pursue.&amp;nbsp; That wasn&apos;t easy, because there were so manyof them that seemed to be beckoning to me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;When you entered as a freshman, you were suppose to declare a majortentatively, and at that time I put down &quot;mathematics&quot;.&amp;nbsp; That form ofabstract, &quot;pure thought&quot; inquiry had appealed to me the most, in highschool.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;We were supposed to declare a major &quot;for real&quot; by the end of thesophomore year.&amp;nbsp; As that academic year got underway, I realizedthat it wasn&apos;t at all clear to me what I would, and/or should,choose.&amp;nbsp; So I tried narrowing the choices to fivepossibilities.&amp;nbsp; But it was an odd sort of narrowing, because thefive were so diverse: mathematics, physics, history, economics, andphilosophy.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In the end, though, it came down to a choice between two: physics andphilosophy.&amp;nbsp; Or perhaps it would be historically inaccurate toput it that literally; but at least, those two will serve asrepresentatives of a choice between two paths ... broader, and morefundamental, than the literal choice between the two specific majors.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If I had [still?] been motivated entirely by the prospective joy oflearning and discovering things, I think I would have chosenphysics.&amp;nbsp; It had supplanted mathematics, by then, as the mostappealing form of purely intellectual inquiry, to me.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;So why didn&apos;t I choose it?&amp;nbsp; There were at least two reasons, butthe one that was more &lt;em&gt;about&lt;/em&gt; physics, itself, was a concernabout the consequences of my actions.&amp;nbsp; Even though I thought ofmyself as wanting to pursue &quot;pure research&quot;, I knew that people oftenfind practical applications for discoveries that others have made.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And I was concerned, in particular, about the possibility that my workmight find application, without my cooperation, in weapons.&amp;nbsp; Iwas not, never have been, a &lt;em&gt;total&lt;/em&gt; pacifist; but I also didn&apos;t have total faith that my country would use military forceonly when, and to the degree, that I would call it truly necessary.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;While this was during the time of the Viet Nam conflict, I think abigger part of the context, for me, was the &quot;cold war&quot;; particularly,the enormous quantities of &quot;strategic weapons&quot; held constantly at theready by the United States, the Soviet Union, and some others.&amp;nbsp; Ibelieved that these were excessive, because they were, on each side,more than enough to destroy the threat posed by the presumedenemy.&amp;nbsp; It seemed clear that if these arsenals were used, therewould be no winner, and that the loser would be the human race, andlife on Earth, as a whole.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;As I look back on this now, I haven&apos;t changed my opinion about thesestrategic weapons: that having that much firepower on line wassomething whose danger, to all, outweighed its benefits.&amp;nbsp; I dofind myself less clear, though, about the logic of taking that as areason not to become a physicist.&amp;nbsp; For one thing, it doesn&apos;t seemall that likely that I would have, without intending to, made adiscovery that would enable the making of yet more lethalweapons.&amp;nbsp; (It also seems a tad bit grandiose to think that likelyenough to worry about; but such is the way of youth.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I could have also made the argument, to myself, that if the leaderswanted to make the &quot;overkill&quot; capacity even worse than it alreadywas, they could do so, by adding even more of the same kinds ofweapons&amp;nbsp; So perhaps [further] scientific and technologicalinnovation in strategic weapons had already become, in a sense,irrelevant; the limits of that innovation no longer constrained howhorrific a scenario the military planners could present us with, givenenough money to spend, and the belief that there was a reason to do it.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I don&apos;t actually know, today, whether I think that this sort of &quot;don&apos;tworry about it&quot; argument would have been valid, or not.&amp;nbsp; Forpurposes of explaining the choice I made back then, in what must havebeen the 1965 - 66 academic year, I don&apos;t think it matters, because tothe best of my recollection, such an argument simply didn&apos;t occur tome at the time.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;The concerns about military applications of my research, were I tobecome a physicist, were real, though, logical or not, and they were afactor, at least, in my choice of major.&amp;nbsp; There were otherfactors, too (and not all of them neatly separable from this one), butthose were more a matter of what drew me &lt;em&gt;towards&lt;/em&gt; philosopnyas a major, rather than what drove me away from physics.&amp;nbsp; So Iwill deal with them in another post.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post include: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;About me&lt;/a&gt;;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Philosophy&quot;&gt;Philosophy&lt;/a&gt;;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Quakerism&quot;&gt;Quakerism&lt;/a.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/08/18.html#a48</guid>			<pubDate>Sat, 18 Aug 2007 20:55:53 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=48&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F08%2F18.html%23a48</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>How I became a &quot;philosopher&quot; ... and what it tells you about me</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/08/08.html#a47</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;The general masthead for this blog (currently) says: &quot;Writing aboutcomputers, life, and society from the perspective of a &apos;poly QuakerTaoist&apos; living in the Triangle region of North Carolina.&quot;&amp;nbsp; I thoughtit might be helpful to say a little more about what &quot;my perspective&quot;actually is, when writing about &quot;life&quot; or &quot;society&quot;.&amp;nbsp; There aremore facts about me that could help you to understand &quot;where I&apos;mcoming from&quot;, beyond the fact that I label myself as polyamorous, andas simultaneously a Quaker and a Taoist.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;One of those facts is that ... while almost my entire working life hasbeen as a computer professional, of one sort or another ... myacademic major was Philosophy.&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In fact, I have three degrees: an &quot;A.B&quot; (Bachelor&apos;s) from Cornell, andan M.A. and Ph.D., both from the University of California at Berkeley;and all three of them are in Philosophy, not (for example) ComputerScience.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;So how does this help you understand &quot;where I&apos;m coming from&quot;?&amp;nbsp;Well, for one thing, if my writing, despite my efforts to thecontrary, sometimes sounds like something written for an academicjournal ... this could be why.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;But [perhaps] more importantly, I&apos;d like to tell you [at least part ofthe reason] &lt;em&gt;why&lt;/em&gt; I chose this particular major, and pursued itall the way to a Ph.D.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;From an employability standpoint, there is, for the most part, onlyone thing you can &quot;do with&quot; a Ph.D in Philosophy: teach philosophy ina college or university.&amp;nbsp; There are exceptions, that is, otherjobs for which an employer may choose specifically to look at&quot;philosophers&quot;, among others, as potential recruits; but, in myexperience, they are rare enough to fall into the &quot;exception thatproves the rule&quot; category.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;As it turned out, I didn&apos;t end up having a career in teachingphilosophy (and how, and why, &lt;em&gt;that&lt;/em&gt; happened is a whole&apos;nother story).&amp;nbsp; But at the time that I enrolled in thePh.D. program, that was the career that I intended to pursue.&amp;nbsp; Sowhy did I want to do that?&amp;nbsp; The academic life, in general,appealed to me; but why philosophy and not one of the other subjectswhich held a lot of interest for me, such as mathematics (my declaredmajor when I first entered Cornell as an undergraduate) or physics?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;That&apos;s one question, but can be viewed from two sides: the negativeside (why not [e.g.] physics?), and the positive side (why[specifically] philosophy?).&amp;nbsp; I will be addressing both sides ofthe question ....&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;... Real Soon Now.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post include: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;About me&lt;/a&gt;;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/Philosophy&quot;&gt;Philosophy&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/08/08.html#a47</guid>			<pubDate>Wed, 08 Aug 2007 22:38:08 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=47&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F08%2F08.html%23a47</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>What I&apos;ve been busy with, continued</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/07/07.html#a46</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;So, after another long pause, I&apos;ll try to answer the question whichremained at the end of my &lt;a      href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/2007/06/08.html#a45&quot;&gt;previous    post&lt;/a&gt;: how does my friend Jim&apos;s being in jail make &lt;em&gt;me&lt;/em&gt;busier?&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Well, you see, Jim had an interactive Web site, which hereferred to as a wiki, and which he&apos;d set up, more than a yearearlier, in order to experiment with how wikis work.&amp;nbsp; When hefound out, in May of this year, that he&apos;d being spending six months in jail, Jim had the brainstormthat this existing wiki could be repurposed: it could be acommunication vehicle for those who wanted to stay in touch with him,and otherwise support him, while he was in the correctionalfacility.&amp;nbsp; For example, he could write something like a &quot;blog&quot;which could be posted on the site.&amp;nbsp; (No, he doesn&apos;t have computeraccess in jail; he writes it by hand, a Minnesota Friendtranscribes it and e-mails it to me, and I put it up on thesite.&amp;nbsp; But that&apos;s getting ahead of the story.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Jim put a quite a lot of energy into getting the site ready for thisuse, during the short time he had before reporting as ordered.&amp;nbsp;But he knew from the outset that, for this towork, someone else would need to administer the site while he wasactually &quot;inside&quot;.&amp;nbsp; As he and I are pretty close friends, andfellow &quot;semi-retired&quot; computer professionals, he asked me to do this,and I readily agreed.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And for weeks (through, and well beyond, the last update to this Radioblog), I, in turn, poured a great deal of energy, and more than alittle worry, into it.&amp;nbsp; As for the worry part: at least part ofme knew, all along, that nothing really critical depended on gettingthis wiki (which I prefer to call an &quot;interactive Web site&quot;) set up&quot;just right&quot;.&amp;nbsp; But I was upset about Jim&apos;s having to go to jail;felt &quot;there must be something I can do to help&quot;; and when theopportunity to do this presented itself, I not only was happy tooblige, but undoubtedly invested it with some of the emotion that Iwished I could invest in &quot;fixing things&quot; so that he &lt;em&gt;didn&apos;t&lt;/em&gt;have to go to jail, if only there were a way to do that.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;msure there&apos;s a technical name, among shrinks, for this phenomenon.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;One issue with which I wrestled a lot was whether to take advantage ofthe wiki software&apos;s capability to restrict access to the site, so thatonly those with a username and password could &quot;get in&quot;.&amp;nbsp; I endedup doing so, but it was a hard decision for me, because it wasn&apos;t whatJim had intended, when he handed it over to me; and I wanted torespect his wishes as much as I could.&amp;nbsp; But I ended up concludingthat I would have to trust my own instincts: he was &quot;inside&quot;, by thetime that I understood the pros and cons of this issue.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Anyway, that&apos;s only an example of the things I&apos;ve agonized over, andlabored on, in trying to make this site serve its several purposes, asbest I could.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I can imagine that I might have made you curious to see the actual site inquestion.&amp;nbsp; Actually, I think part of me &lt;em&gt;hopes&lt;/em&gt; I&apos;ve makeyou curious.&amp;nbsp; But it wouldn&apos;t do much good to list the URL,since, as I said, you&apos;d need a username and password in order to &quot;get in&quot;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I will tell you that the &quot;wiki&quot; software in question is known asJotSpot.&amp;nbsp; The people who developed it call it a &quot;wiki&quot;, but morespecifically, an &quot;application wiki&quot;.&amp;nbsp; This means that within sucha site, you can have various pages which embody various kinds ofon-line applications (from forums to spreadsheets), not just the &quot;webpages you can edit right in your browser&quot; which are most commonlyassociated with the term &quot;wiki&quot;.&amp;nbsp; That&apos;s part of why I prefer tocall it an &quot;interactive Web site&quot;; the other part of the reason isthat some people don&apos;t associate &lt;em&gt;anything&lt;/em&gt; with the term&quot;wiki&quot;: that word is just not part of their vocabularies.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I could take this bit of writing in different directions, fromhere.&amp;nbsp; I could talk more about the JotSpot technology: why itseems potentially promising to me, and why I&apos;m worried that thepromise will not be realized.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I could also talk about Quakerism: Jim and I are both friends andFriends, i.e. members of the Raleigh Friends Meeting, and most of thepeople participating in this support effort at the Minnesota end aremembers or attenders of the Twin Cities Friends Meeting.&amp;nbsp; So itwould be interesting to discuss whether the way I&apos;ve been able tobuild cooperation with these people, whom I&apos;ve never met, revealsanything that&apos;s special about the Religious Society of Friends (themore formal term for the faith tradition known as Quakerism).&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Perhaps I&apos;ll do both of those things, if I can find the time.&amp;nbsp;But that will be in posts yet to come.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/07/07.html#a46</guid>			<pubDate>Sat, 07 Jul 2007 19:07:35 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=46&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F07%2F07.html%23a46</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>What I&apos;m up to: an unexpected turn of events</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/06/08.html#a45</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;It&apos;s been quite a while since I last added anything to thisblog.&amp;nbsp; But no, I&apos;m not drifting into one of those &lt;em&gt;really&lt;/em&gt;long gaps, of six months or so.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;m determined to keep posting aheck of a lot more frequently than that, though the average timebetween posts may be greater than it was during this past spring.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;What&apos;s making me busier?&amp;nbsp; Well, I am making some progress oncoding the Moneydance extension promisedin &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/2007/05/21.html#a44&quot;&gt;mylast post&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; However, the biggest change is something lesspredictable than that.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;My good friend Jim is in jail.&amp;nbsp; He&apos;s been there about a week, andwill be there for six months.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;It wasn&apos;t a &lt;em&gt;complete&lt;/em&gt; surprise.&amp;nbsp; He was not, for example,arrested on the street and taken directly to jail.&amp;nbsp; About twoweeks ago, he got something in the mail from a court in Minnesota,ordering him to report about a week later to a county facilitythere.&amp;nbsp; And so he did.&amp;nbsp; (Jim, like I, lives in the Raleigharea of North Carolina.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;And the letter wasn&apos;t a complete surprise to him, when he got it,either.&amp;nbsp; He&apos;d had a hearing some months ago, and he knew thatthis was a possible [worst case] outcome.&amp;nbsp; He&apos;ll be locked up forsix months because he&apos;s been held in contempt of court.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I may have gotten you curious: what is this case actually about?&amp;nbsp;If so, I apologize, but I&apos;m not going to answer that.&amp;nbsp; I said asmuch as I did only to give a bit of the flavor of it &lt;em&gt;as anexperience&lt;/em&gt; for him, and for me: that it was sudden, but notextremely sudden; also that it&apos;s a civil, not a criminal matter.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;All this doesn&apos;t explain how &lt;em&gt;his&lt;/em&gt; being incarcerated leadsto &lt;em&gt;my&lt;/em&gt; being busier.&amp;nbsp; I plan on addressing that in mynext post.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/06/08.html#a45</guid>			<pubDate>Fri, 08 Jun 2007 21:02:30 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=45&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F06%2F08.html%23a45</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>I&apos;m a cancer survivor</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/05/10.html#a41</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;It&apos;s been true since before I started this blog, but I don&apos;t seem tohave mentioned it before.&amp;nbsp; I got my diagnosis of prostate cancerthree years ago this month: May, 2004.&amp;nbsp; I had a prostatectomy(surgery to remove the prostate gland) toward the end of July of thatyear.&amp;nbsp; (Missed my niece&apos;s wedding in California, which happened acouple of days before the operation.)&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;The results of my PSA (prostate-specific antigen) tests went to&quot;undetectable&quot; soon afterwards, which is the best available indicationthat the cancer is, in fact, cured.&amp;nbsp; Strictly speaking, though,one never can be absolutely sure of that; it becomes certain for allpractical purposes only about ten years after the operation, assumingthe PSA results don&apos;t change.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I do live my life on the assumption that prostate cancer isnot going to kill me.&amp;nbsp; And so I can (and do) count myselfas lucky.&amp;nbsp; Not as one of the luckiest of survivors, though, in that I still have some side effects, urinary and sexual, from theoperation.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;m still working on those.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Though I no longer feel as if my life is in danger from this disease,it has also led to a permanent change in my outlook: I am not likelyto forget again that you never know.&amp;nbsp; At any time, something maycome along which threatens, at least, to kill you.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I&apos;m sure that that made me a lot less willing to slog along in a jobenvironment that I had come to hate, just waiting until I was surethat I was financially ready to retire.&amp;nbsp; And so, my cancerexperience is probably part of the explanation of how I came to retirewhen I did, last June, when I was not at all sure that I wasfinancially ready.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post include: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;About me&lt;/a&gt;;&lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/retirement&quot;&gt;Retirement&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/05/10.html#a41</guid>			<pubDate>Thu, 10 May 2007 21:38:40 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=41&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F05%2F10.html%23a41</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>What I&apos;m up to: April 2007 edition</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/04/17.html#a35</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;These days I am testing the hypothesis that writing can be a basicpart of what my future is about.&amp;nbsp; By &quot;writing&quot; I mean writingEnglish (some on computer-related topics, and some not), as opposed to&quot;coding&quot; (actually writing computer programs).&amp;nbsp; I expect still to write some code, but perhaps that won&apos;t be the center of what Ido: not as much as it has been for most of my career.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I know I can write; the hypothetical part is whether I can make somemoney at it, from time to time.&amp;nbsp; That would certainly help; I&apos;mnot ready to consider myself entirely retired, yet.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self&quot;&gt;About me&lt;/a&gt;; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/retirement&quot;&gt;Retirement&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/04/17.html#a35</guid>			<pubDate>Tue, 17 Apr 2007 20:54:06 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=35&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F04%2F17.html%23a35</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>A Change in the Masthead</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/02/27.html#a21</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Today, I am changing the &quot;description&quot;, or subject line, that appears at the top of my blog pages from this:&lt;/p&gt;&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;i&gt; Sharing thoughts -- well,planning to -- about computer programming and software, beingpolyamorous in the Triangle area of North Carolina, and whatever elsecomes to mind.&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;&lt;p&gt;To this:&lt;/p&gt;&lt;blockquote&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;i&gt;Writing about computers, life,and society from the perspective of a &quot;poly Quaker Taoist&quot; living inthe Triangle region of North Carolina.&lt;/i&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;&lt;p&gt;I think this better sums up what I want to write about, and includes more of the major influences on the way I look at the world.&lt;/p&gt; &lt;p&gt;Also, it&apos;s less tentative: the &quot;&lt;i&gt;well,planning to&lt;/i&gt;&quot; part doesn&apos;t fit my current state of resolve.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/blogging&quot;&gt;Blogging&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/02/27.html#a21</guid>			<pubDate>Tue, 27 Feb 2007 16:53:36 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=21&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F02%2F27.html%23a21</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>Starting Over, Sort Of</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/02/26.html#a20</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;The title of this post refers to the fact that once again, there&apos;s been a long gap in my posting.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;So what am I up to these days?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;The most important answer is, &quot;finding myself&quot;.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;m sixty years old, consider myself semi-retired, and am still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;It&apos;s now been a little over eight months since I left my last full-time job, as a developer of installation programs for SAS Institute.&amp;nbsp; (&quot;Last&quot;, at least in the sense of most recent; perhaps &quot;last&quot; in the sense of &quot;last regular, full-time job ever&quot;.)  &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;But within the last month or so, I&apos;ve realized that, until then, I&apos;d been suffering from a disorder for which I&apos;ve coined the name &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/phantomBossSyndrome&quot;&gt;phantom boss syndrome&lt;/a&gt;.&amp;nbsp; In other words, I hadn&apos;t really let myself believe that I can actually choose what to do.&amp;nbsp; So more recently, I&apos;ve been in a process of coming more fully into that realization.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This blog entry is one manifestation of that.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;ve been wanting to write more often, for this and other media, but hadn&apos;t been letting myself do it.&amp;nbsp; I am hoping that, now that the log-jam is broken, it won&apos;t form up again, at least not to anything like the same extent.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Now, I just have to figure out how to find myself some readers.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post include: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/retirement&quot;&gt;Retirement&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2007/02/26.html#a20</guid>			<pubDate>Mon, 26 Feb 2007 16:04:15 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=20&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2007%2F02%2F26.html%23a20</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>What I do</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/08/26.html#a18</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;So what am I doing with myself, since I &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/2006/08/24.html&quot;&gt;&quot;retired&quot;&lt;/a&gt;?&lt;/p&gt;  &lt;p&gt;I consider myself to have two &quot;callings&quot;: software developer, and writer.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Let me talk about the former for a bit, now.&lt;/p&gt;At the moment, at least, I&apos;d say that my three favorite programming languages are Perl, Scheme, and Java. &amp;nbsp; (I wonder how many people there are who would pick those three.  I suspect -- but not  confidently -- that the answer would be &quot;not many&quot;, because they&apos;re all so different from each other. )&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Perl is the language I&apos;ve worked  in the most, over the last several years (which is to say, over the greater part of my time at SAS).&amp;nbsp; &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt; At any rate.&amp;nbsp; My &quot;focal project&quot; at the moment is implementing a flexible backup utility as a Perl module.&amp;nbsp; &quot;As a Perl module&quot; implies that this is not a standalone application designed for complete non-programmers to use: you have to write a Perl script in order to make use of it.&amp;nbsp; But for those who know how to do that, it gives them a great deal of control over how the backups are done.&amp;nbsp; &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I&apos;m writing this mostly because I want it.&amp;nbsp; But I do intend, also, to submit it to CPAN (the Comprehensive Perl Archive Network), once it&apos;s done.&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post include: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/retirement&quot;&gt;Retirement&lt;/a&gt;; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/perl&quot;&gt;Perl&lt;/a&gt;; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/backupSoftware&quot;&gt;Backup software&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/08/26.html#a18</guid>			<pubDate>Sat, 26 Aug 2006 19:00:26 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=18&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2006%2F08%2F26.html%23a18</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>I&apos;m back ... and &quot;retired&quot;</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/08/24.html#a17</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;p&gt;Obviously, I haven&apos;t been posting lately ... like, in almostsix months.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I&apos;ve been, ah, busy.&amp;nbsp; Yeah, that&apos;s it.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Seriously, though.&amp;nbsp; My life has been through a lot of change inthis time.&amp;nbsp; The most notable: I&apos;m no longer employed at SAS  Institute.&amp;nbsp; I ceased working there about two months ago.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;I&apos;m listed on theirbooks as &quot;retired&quot;.&amp;nbsp; I&apos;d say that &quot;semi-retired&quot; or &quot;on sabbatical&quot;fits my actual status better, since I don&apos;t expect to finish out mylife without any more &quot;work&quot;, meaning, activity which seeks to makemoney in some way.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;em&gt;Categorie(s) for this post: &lt;/em&gt; &lt;a href=&quot;http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/retirement&quot;&gt;Retirement&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/08/24.html#a17</guid>			<pubDate>Thu, 24 Aug 2006 18:48:00 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=17&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2006%2F08%2F24.html%23a17</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>Where Else to Find Me</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/02/17.html#a5</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;I also have a home page -- not a blog -- at The Well: &lt;a href=&quot;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/&quot;&gt;&lt;a href=&quot;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/&quot;&gt;http://www.well.com/user/edelsont/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/a&gt;.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/02/17.html#a5</guid>			<pubDate>Fri, 17 Feb 2006 16:52:17 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=5&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2006%2F02%2F17.html%23a5</comments>			</item>		<item>			<title>A Few Words About Me</title>			<link>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/02/04.html#a2</link>			<description>&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I live in Cary, NC, with Toofus, a thirteen-year-old male brindle Greyhound.  &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I work as a software developer for SAS Institute.  (I do installation programs.)&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I don&apos;t expect to be blogging here about SAS -- the company or the software.  &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;I do, however, expect to be posting about other topics in computer software and programming.&lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;Among other things.  &lt;br&gt;&lt;br&gt;</description>			<guid>http://radio.weblogs.com/0149758/categories/self/2006/02/04.html#a2</guid>			<pubDate>Sat, 04 Feb 2006 17:07:48 GMT</pubDate>			<comments>http://radiocomments2.userland.com/comments?u=149758&amp;amp;p=2&amp;amp;link=http%3A%2F%2Fradio.weblogs.com%2F0149758%2F2006%2F02%2F04.html%23a2</comments>			</item>		</channel>	</rss>